The one in which I have no direction.



I wish I had something I was good at. I mean, really good at. There are many things I am fair at, but I wish I had that one thing I was just great at. That thing that i lived for. Something I knew I wanted to do when i grow up. I'm not sure about anything. There are so many things I want to be; I couldn't possibly be them all. I want to be an actress, a director, a writer, a teacher, a military pilot, a nurse, or a car mechanic. I have no drive in any one thing. I have always have ecletic tastes in all senses of the word. I never have ONE thing that I am positive I like over all others. I don't have a favorite band or a favorite movie or favorite song. I don't have BEST friend. I don't have a FAVORITE car. I have plenty of things that I like but I have never been able to omit all other things and concentrate on one. And it's not that like I don't know what i think. I have preferences, i am quite vocal about my opinions and likes and dislikes. I'm not one of those insecure people who can't decide anything and have to look to others.

All people that end up great say that since they were kids, they've wanted to do this. They dreamed about it, they tol anyone who would hear them that's what they were going to do. I bet they had a favorite song, too.

I feel so without direction in anything.

-Maverick

2005-09-24 5:12 p.m.

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