The one in which I visit a nursing home.
I have been on a vacation for the past couple of weeks. Me and my mother and grandmother went on a road trip for 10 days of my vacation. It sure was an experience. But a couple days ago we stopped to visit my grandmother's stepmother in the nursing home.
I think nursing homes are the saddest place ever. There was this old man there that just sat in his wheel chair and looked around like he was lost. He was thin, and he looked scared and lonely. It just broke my heart to look at him. I just wanted to go up and hold his hand and tell him that Jesus loved him. But I didn't. Because I am a wuss. I just smiled at him in a way which I hope was bright. He kind of looked shocked, like no one had ever smiled at him before. I teared up. I couldn't help it. I just sat there and almost cried.
I couldn't help but imagine what it would be like to be old. To feel useless. To not be able to do anything for yourself, not even feed yourself. To just exist, and in your opinion, not do anyone any good. To think you're just trouble to everyone around you.
I never want to get old. I never want to feel useless. That's the scariest and saddest thing to me.
-Mav